Blah.

It's been a while. There's been a lot going on, but I haven't had much to say. I've had no motivation.

The semester is over, which is great. Less stress. But of course, now that school stress is over, I have other stress in my life. But that's how it always goes, isn't it?

There's been a lot of drama going on around here over the last few days. I'm not a fan of drama. At all. I could definitely live without it. I don't want to get into the details, but I think I might start a more private blog somewhere so I can get more off of my chest and not worry about who will see it.

There's just way too much tension at home right now and way too many things going on. Everyone is stressed out and overwhelmed, and a whole bunch of stressed out people makes for an unhappy house.

On a lighter note, Rylea is doing very well. She has her 9-month checkup tomorrow. I can't believe she's getting so big already. Only three more months and she'll be a year old! Time goes by way too quickly.

Oh yeah. My best friend had her baby on Sunday. His name is Dylan and he's adorable. He's Rylea's future husband. ;)

Okay, it's late. I have an appointment in the morning and a very busy day after that. I should probably try to get some sleep.

I can't think of a title...

Man, I haven't had time to update lately. Well, I have. I just haven't had anything too interesting to say.

I'm kind of writing to kill time right now. My Farmville crops will be ready in about five minutes, and I need to harvest them before I can go to bed. Oh wow. I'm lame. I don't care though. :D

Today was my mommy's birthday. I made her a cake (white with white frosting, her favorite) and my brother came over to have dinner with all of us. It was nice to see my brother again; I miss him.

I only have two papers, a final, and the rest of my independent study class to finish up before the end of the semester. I feel like I have a lot to do, but it really won't take me all that long. I have class tomorrow night and work Wednesday night, so I don't have any time at night to work on anything. It's hard to get anything done during the day because Rylea is ALWAYS getting into things she's not supposed to, climbing the stairs, or eating cat food. I can't focus on school work at all during the day because I can't keep my eyes off of her for more than 30 seconds at a time. And she's not even walking yet! She is a very fast crawler though...

I can't wait until June when Arron and I can move back in together. Money is going to be really tight, but everything will work out. He's making more money than I am and working a lot more hours than I am, so he'll be the main breadwinner until I finish school... once I get a nursing job he gets to be a stay at home dad until the girls start school. Lucky him.

Speaking of school... I am so excited to go into nursing but I'm going to miss my psychology stuff. I was thinking about going back to Metro State for my RN-BSN after I finish my Associate's degree in nursing. I want to get my drug and alcohol counseling licensure while I'm back there and possibly get another bachelor's degree in Psychology. I've always wanted to have more than one degree, and I think it'll help a lot if I do end up working in a rehab facility like I want to.

Okay, enough rambling. My crops are ready! Haha. Off to harvest and then hit the hay.

Completely random.

The semester will be over pretty soon, and I'm actually a little bummed. Just a little. I absolutely love my writing class. Our professor is one of my favorite teachers of all time. She is so fantastic, I can't really put it into words. I probably sound like I'm in love with her, but I promise you, I'm not. I just appreciate a good teacher who encourages her students and makes them want to succeed. I hated writing before this class, but now I'm enjoying it more and more. I can actually put more thought into my writing now and enjoy it. I'll definitely remember this class.

I have two papers I want to put on our class blog. I have to do some editing and then send them to be posted there. I'm pretty excited about it. I'm really excited to see everyone's work on the blog. My last two papers should be fun too. I'm doing my individual paper on depression awareness, and we have a group paper to do that is also going to be about depression, but from kind of a different angle. It's something I actually care about, which makes it more fun to write about. I always hated being assigned a topic for writing. If I don't care about the topic, I'm not going to want to write about it. I'm certainly not going to do my best work.

Okay, now onto a totally different subject...

American Idol tonight was pretty good. Lee gave me goosebumps and Crystal made me cry. They're the only two people I really care about on that show anymore. I still like Siobhan (I LOVE her name by the way), but she hasn't been amazing lately. I just want my Lee and Crystal to make it to the top.

I'm kind of jumping all over the place tonight, but we got these new granola bars and they are simply amazing. They're Oats 'n Dark Chocolate. Anything with chocolate is a winner in my book. But seriously. I love them. Granola and chocolate are two of my favorite things. So putting them together is like heaven in my mouth!

Ugh, I sound ridiculous. I need to go to bed. I have a LOT of work to do for the end of the semester, so I should probably make sure I'm getting enough sleep (although there is no such thing... for me anyway).

Why can't I go to bed at a decent time?

I love how every time I post I talk about how tired I am. I don't think I'll ever get enough sleep. I love sleeping, but mostly when I'm not supposed to be sleeping, like in the middle of the day. When I get home from school or work at night, I can't just go to bed right away. I need to unwind and have some "me" time (which usually involves Facebook... I'm pathetic). On the nights I don't have school or work, I still stay up late because my "me" time is always after Rylea goes to bed for the night. So I guess that means I'll get more time for myself and sleep in about 18 years... unless she turns out like me and is still living with me when she's 21.

Work really wore me out tonight. I swear, if I don't lose weight from working this job, something must be seriously wrong with me. My feet are raw in the back where my shoes were rubbing against them (note to self: new shoes at work is a bad idea), and I'm just sore all over. I need a foot massage bad. It was my first night out on the sales floor on my own. Holy crap, I still have a lot to learn. I have the gist of it down, but I've got to figure out the best way to go about doing everything so I can get it done quickly. I'll get the hang of it eventually, but for now I'm glad I work with nice people who will help me out and not get mad at me for being slow or complain about having to help me. That makes it a lot easier.

I miss Arron so much. I don't get to see him as much as I'd like to, and it sucks. Now that we're both working again, it's even harder for us to spend time together. On the nights we do have together, he has to go to bed super early because he works so early in the morning, so we don't really see each other. He's usually in bed by the time I get home from work or else he goes to bed way earlier than I do. It sucks. I'm so proud of him though for everything he's done in the last few months. He's wonderful and I love him. I'm so lucky.

Random.

It's only 9:30, and I'm going to bed as soon as I finish this. I haven't been to bed this early in ages. I'm pretty excited. I never feel like I get enough sleep, no matter how early I go to bed or how late I sleep in.

Rylea and I have to go home tomorrow, boo. We've had a fun weekend. Arron and I took the girls to Como Zoo today, which was quite the adventure. It took us 20 minutes just to find a parking spot because it was so busy. There were a lot of whore-y looking girls and trashy people there, heh. So that made it interesting. We decided we're going to try and take the girls every month this summer. Right now there are still a lot of animals gone for the season, so it'll be even more fun when all the animals are there.

I can't believe this semester is almost over. I still have a lot of work to do, yet I have no motivation. It'll be so nice to have a break this summer. I start at St. Kate's this fall; I'm so excited and nervous! It's going to be super expensive, so I'm not looking forward to that... but the rest of it should be great!

Sleeeepy.

I'm exhausted. I worked my first closing shift last night, and I thought we closed at ten, but I was wrong. We closed at 11:00, and I didn't get out of work until around 12:30. I got home at around 1:00, after going out of my way to SuperAmerica to get slushies. Turns out the slushie machine wasn't working. I was pissed. The last hour at work all I could think about was how much I wanted a slushie. Bah.

I didn't go to bed until almost 3:00 because I'm an idiot and I can't just go straight to bed when I get home, no matter how tired I am. I woke up at 4:30 when Arron got up for work, then got up for the day at around 7:30 when Rylea woke up. I can barely keep my eyes open. I just put Rylea down for her morning nap, but unless Dani decides to take a nap, which is highly unlikely, I can't take a nap until after Arron gets home from work. To make matters worse, I don't have any pop because it's in the trunk of my car and Arron drove my car to work. :(

When I first started my job, my manager told us that "If you don't go home after your shift sweating, your feet hurting, and your face hurting from smiling, you're not doing your job!" Last night was only my second night of training, and I found out that she wasn't kidding. My feet still hurt now. I need to get some better shoes for work.

GRR.

It took me an hour and fifteen minutes to get to class today. When I finally get there, I find out the class is canceled. Ugh. I was so mad. The professor e-mailed us and told us at around 3:20 that our 6:00 class would be canceled, but I didn't get the e-mail until after I was back home. So I spent around two hours driving to and from class for no reason. Talk about a waste of time and gas.

On the bright side, I have all night to relax! Sort of. I decided I'm going to go on a cleaning spree. I already cleaned my bathroom, and I'm going to do some work on my bedroom here in a minute. I never have motivation to clean (organizing is a different story!) so I figure I should do as much as possible while I'm still in the mood.

Back to work tomorrow... after my cleaning I'm going over to Arron's parents' house and spending the night there since Rylea is already over there, then I can go straight to work from there tomorrow. It makes perfect sense since my work is closer to there than it is to here.

Tired.

Holy crap, I can not wake up this morning. I'm exhausted. I keep finding myself dozing off just sitting here at the computer. I fell asleep while going to the bathroom this morning. That's not right. Hopefully Rylea will take a good nap in a little while because I sure need one.

Thursdays and Fridays are such busy days. They always involve lots of driving and running around and such. This week won't be quite so bad since I don't have my usual Friday morning appointment way down in Eden Prairie. That means I'll get to sleep in even later tomorrow, since Rylea is always at her nana's on Thursday night. Yay!

Tomorrow night is my second night of training at work, ahh! I'm always nervous but I always end up feeling fine once I'm there and actually doing something. It feels so good to be back at work. Now that Arron and I both have jobs again, things are starting to look much better and I'm super excited for the next few crazy, hectic months!

Headache.

Ugh, my head is absolutely killing me. I thought it was a "hungry headache," as I call them, but eating didn't help it go away. It's awful. It's going to be hard to go to sleep tonight, since my head feels like it's going to explode every time I move it. Blah.

I just got done watching "Addicted" on TLC... that's an awesome show. I love those kinds of shows, but every time I watch them I think I want to get into a job helping people with addiction. But I figure I can still do that even while doing nursing. I would love to be a nurse in a rehab center; that would probably be the best thing ever. Then again, who knows? Maybe I'd hate it once I actually tried it. But I won't know until I try!

Okay. I was planning on writing a longer entry, but I don't have anything that exciting to say and my head hurts too much to keep looking at the screen. I think it's time for some Advil PM and my bed. And maybe some Sex and the City.

Hmm...

After discussing blogs in our writing class, I got the urge to start one up. So here it is. Excuse the stupid name. I couldn't think of one at all, so I just took the first two letters of my daughter's name and the last three letters of my name, and I realized it sounds kind of like "writin'". So... there you go.

This will most likely be completely random, but that's okay!

Speaking of random, Tim was actually good on American Idol tonight. Better than Andrew even. He's getting better every week! I might be a member of Team Tim now... weird.